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Hi there.
Wow, exactly a month later, what a coincidence. Anyway.
First semester of school ended. I never liked how fast time flies by. I remember noticing how time started to feel faster in second grade and since then it's always been a dissapointing experience noticing time. I started to think much less about suicide lately, I hope it stays that way. But still have problems with emotional numbing which frustrate me. Imagine you have the most dream-like, fiction-like experience you could even imagine in real life and you feel nothing about it. I mean, from recounting it, it sure sounds wholesome as fuck. But in the moment the emotions feel so foggy that you can't recall them from memory at all. Knitted bunnies for a few people. Came out like shit in my honest opinion, but I tried my best. I've never done any embroidery or sewed anything and I don't really have help on that matter so, it is what it is I guess.

The sessions with therapist are kinda confusing? I think I keep zoning out all the time and I have difficulty keeping up with understanding what she's saying. Don't really know how to fix this, will wait and see.